So, ano bang nangyari sa buhay ko nitong nakaraang mga buwan. This is a great way para ma-evalute ko din yung sarili. Tinatamad na ako mag-evaluate.

October 2009
-intensive review for the Nursing Licensure Examination.
-pabalik-balik pa rin ako, Manila-Cavite kasi nga dahil sa review.

November 2009
This is the most nerve-wracking mind-blowing and stressful month in my life.
-Continous pa rin yung intensive review ko.
-and of course, the exam itself. November 29-30
-Para sakin yung ang pinakamahirap na part with the exam, well of course, mahirap talaga yung exam, as in. Pero ang mas nakapagpa-stress sakin… e tuwing iisipin ko yung exam. Lalo na yung mga last 3 days before the exam… sobrang stressing, sa utak. Though physically e hindi naman halata. Anyway, iba yung feeling after nung exam, parang cloud 9… parang nabunutan ako ng tinik. Pero nung nagtagal, naisip ko, hindi pa talaga dun nagtatapos ang lahat. Right now, I’m still waiting for the result to arrive… and it’s coming soon. Grrrr. Kinakabahan na ako.

December 2009
Start na ng BUM life ko. For the whole month 3-5 times lang yata ako lumabas ng bahay. (Siyempre, hindi naman kasama dun yung pagbili-bili ko sa labas ng mga pagkain). Ayun, super tambay talaga ako. Patabaing baboy. Kain-tulog-internet lang gawain ko. At nagbago na rin bigla ang body clock ko. Hindi na ako makatulog ng mas maaga ng 3AM. Grabe, aswang mode. Mas buhay pa ako pag gabi. Ang dami ko ng drama/series na napanood. At lalo pang nadagdagan yung mga addictions ko sa Kpop world. *eeee, fangirl mode* So ayun, super bum talaga ako at official tigalinis ng bahay (kahit na once a week ko lang naman talaga ginagawa yun.)

Well, at least nung last days ng 2009 medyo naging active naman ang buhay ko. Buti na lang at umuwi kami ng Batangas nun. Super enjoy talaga ang Christmas vacation. Na-miss ko yung mga pinsan ko. At na-miss ko din yung Batangas. Ang saya talaga pag kasama ang buong angkan. At dahil din dun, *fangril mode ON* naging full-blown fan na ako ng Dong Bang Shin Ki (DBSK) na dati e, ayaw ko pang tanggapin.

January 2010
Happy New year!
Hindi pa rin nagbabago yung mga ginagawa ko. Kain-tulog-internet pa rin. Masyado na akong napamahal sa kama ko at sa laptop ko. Nakakulong na ako dito sa bahay. What a lazy ass!

Well, at least na update ko na ulit ‘tong blog ko. Ang dami ko ng namimiss. I’ll blog it next time. Gusto ko lang malagyan ulit ng bangong post itong blog ko.

Hahaha. So random.

Visit me at tumblr. Mas active ako dun.

Annyeong!

1. awake, watching It’s a Boy Girl Thing
2. loading episodes 26 and 26 of Family Outing in youtube
3. zone out. daydream. think.
4. check out tumblr, twitter, allkpop and 21evo
5. watch few episodes of Family Outing
6. sleep at around 3 in the morning
7. woke up around 7
8. zone out. daydream. think.
9. sleep again
10. got up at around 10:20 AM
11. press F1 and enter password (my laptop restarts because of updates)
12. zone out. daydream. think.
13. tumblr: scroll. scroll. like. scroll. reblog. like. follow. scroll. scroll.
14. twitter. allkpop. 21evo.
15. zone out. daydream. think.
16. reload Family Outing
17. eat brunch. bulalo with tamarind.
18. zone out. daydream. think.
19. tumblr. twitter. plurk. youtube. facebook. farmville. allkpop. 21evo. blogger. yskee.
20. continuous browsing of the site mentioned aboved up to 3:45PM
21. went out with Mama
22. zone out. daydream. think.
23. ukay-ukay (UK) shopping. new arrival.
24. bought a white I-dont-know-what-you-call-it-but-it-serves-as-a-cover-up-only-without-sleeves-and-almost-like-a-racer-back-plus-the-jumper-look-on-the-front top
25. 7/11. Selecta Double Dutch on stick + Café Au Lait
26. went back home
27. zone out. daydream. think.
28. back in front of my laptop. do the usual.
29. recharge my iPod. recharge my camera’s battery.
30. prepare for “doing the laundry”
31. soak my things + the new white top from UK.
32. get back in front my laptop.
33. watch the rest of the episodes of Family Outing. 25-26
34. zone out. daydream. think.
35. by 7PM, eat dinner. tried eating kangkong. not bad.
36. laptop.
37. zone out. daydream. think.
38. load episode 1 of You’re Beautiful in youtube
39. watch Lovers in Paris.
40. take care of my nail in my big toe.
41. laptop.
42. watch episode 1 of You’re Beautiful
43. realized that I loaded the wrong parts for YB.
44. reloaded part 2.. and so on.
45. zone out. daydream. think.
46. tried writing an entry. failed.
47. repost entries on smooochies. edited a bit of the template of smooochies.
48. watch YB. getting giddy over Jang Geun Seuk.
49. zone out. daydream. think.
50. tried writing an entry. and this is the result.

And somewhere in between, I was listening to Jim Brickman & Michelle Wright’s Your Love and A Day with the Family, the Family Song from Family Outing.

So that’s how my day went. What a bum! And most of the time…

I was zoning out, daydreaming and thinking.

P.S.
Whenever I’m in front of my laptop, I never fail to look my self in the mirror. My mirror is behind my laptop.. so yeah, narcissistic much?!

Still in review. Oh Lord, please help me. Intensive review na namin, but still.. hindi pa rin sobrang nagsi-sink-in sakin na sa November 29-30 na yung board exam.
Discipline.. where are you?! Kailangang-kailangan kita ngayon. Kailangan ko ng disiplina sa pag-aaral at disiplina na huwag muna mag-aksaya ng oras sa mga bagay na hindi naman importante sa ngayon (example: panonood ng mga variety show at drama series)

Double T. Tumblr & Twitter
Dahil nga review mode ako ngayon (really) medyo nag li-lo ako sa pag-iinternet. As in. dahil hindi ko naman talaga kaya ng walang interent. And thankfully I’m no that into Facebook, Multiply and Plurk anymore. Idagdag mo pa yung blogging, di na ako masyado nakakapag-post ng mga entries. Ang tanging pinagkakaabalahan ko sa net ay ang Tumblr at Twitter.

So, what’s with Tumblr?
According to their “about” page:

“Tumblr lets you effortlessly share anything. Post text, photos, quotes, links, music, and videos, from your browser, phone, desktop, email, or wherever you happen to be.”

Para sakin, this is the easiest way to blog.. Parang pinagsama-samang blogger, plurk, twitter at multiply. Pero mas madaling gamitin. Oh well, na-mention ko na dito na ginawa ko ng fangirl site ko yun.. So karamihan sa mga post ko e about fangirling. Madami rin akong nakikilala na adik sa mga Asian Stars. At dahil ang daming mga artistic, creative and bright minds na nagkalat sa Tumblr, marami talaga kong nakukuhang kung anu-ano.. It’s like: “Microblogging at its best!”

Twitter? Do I need to say more?!?!
I used to be a loyal plurker, pero dahil sa nakaka-frustrate na karma points, nawalan na ko ng gana mag-plurk. I’m just keeping it kasi kahit papano mahal ko pa rin ang plurk.. But now, I’m more active in Twitter. Plus the fact na mas madali siya i-access via mobile web, mas nakakapag-update ako kahit papano.. at higit sa lahat, wala akong aalalahaning karma points. Just tweet!

Ukay-ukay afficionado!
Si Mama ang nagsimula nito, nung mga March pa.. Nag-eenjoy siya mag ukay-ukay ng mga palda, at dahil hindi ko naman hilig magpalda, hindi ko feel sumama pag mag-u-UK siya.. Tapos one time, sumama ako.. and the rest is history.. Hahaha! The best mamili sa UK, mura lang talaga. Hindi naman second hand yung mga tinda nila, yun yung mga factory defects at saka surplus from the other countries.. And superrrrrr nag-eenjoy talaga ako. And because I started loving vintage stuff, sobrang swak sakin ang UK. At ako kasi yung type ng girl na hindi bumibili ng mga mamahalin na damit, kasi madali ako magsawa, so nakakapanghinayang kung bibili ako ng medyo mahal. At saka, ayoko na mag-suot ng USO na damit… ’cause everyone’s wearing it.. Ayoko ng maraming kapareho.. Well anyway.. ang latest kong addiction ngayon sa UK ay mga jackets and coats. Kahit wala namang winter dito sa Pinas, feel na feel ko pa rin mag-jacket kasi madali akong lamigin. At saka they are so fashionable.. it never get s old. The last time, bumili kami ng dalawang jacket. which is worth around 3K kung sa mall ko bibilhin, [I swear, I saw that (almost the) same style in Glorietta/Trinoma], I only got if for only P80.00, yung dalawang jacket na yun ha! the best talaga.. I’m gonna post a picture of that jacket pag naayos na yung camera ko…

And speaking of camera, namimiss ko na talaga yung camera ko. Three months na siyang sira at parang matagal pa bago ko maipagawa yun. Wala pa kasi akong pera.. (so matatagalan pa bago ako makapag-post ng pictures dito )

Yan na muna.. This is overrated but I’ll try to post more, as much as possible.. Bye!

1. NEW found word: SMEXY
One of the countless words I’ve encountered on comments and forums. I just love it.

smexy [s-mex-y] adj.
1. smart and sexy
2. used to describe someone, something that is super sexy
3. sexy but at a greater magnitude

2. NEW Korean Female Artist I admire: Lee Hyo Ri
Among the hundreds of Female Artists in Korea, though I like some, there are only two of them that I really admire: Jung Ryu Won and Hwang Bo. Now there’s three of them, and the latest addition was Lee Hyo Ri. She’s famous in the Kpop industry but I never got interested on her ’cause I thought she was one of those spoiled-stars-who-only-cares-about-shopping-and-their-image. But I was very wrong… very, very wrong. After watching Family Outing, I found out that she was the exact opposite of my first impression of her. I love the way she carries herself, even on embarrassing moments. She doesn’t care if she falls over on the mud or trip on the stream while carrying a man on his back. I love that she’s straightforward, she’s funny, she’s witty, and she’s sexy.
Definitely, not your ordinary diva… walang kyeme! I just love her.

P.S.
When I first saw her, she reminds me of Alicia Keys. Well, in some ways, she kinda looks like Alicia Keys.

3. NEW dyed hair: My hair has a Celtic Copper color. <3
And because I’m not in school anymore.. it means there are no restriction for dyed hair anymore. Yay! I love the color. Thanks to my hair stylist… my mother dear. She’s the one who paid for the hair coloring mix and she also the one who applied it. Big thanks to her! Hahaha!
The picture on each side are both overexposed so the color is also a bit “over”. But if I’m going to choose what hair color I want.. it’s still black but with blue highlights. That’s what I wanted ever since… Someday…

4. NEW sweet tooth: Ice cream
I can’t remember when I started to have a strong urge for ice cream. Well, since I was a kid, I really love everything that’s sweet and I can go gaga over a piece of chocolate. For the ice cream, it was just following the chocolate.. it was second place. But ever since I started discovering great places where I can eat and indulge my self in delicious and satisfying ice creams.. it tied with the chocolate. Blame Dairy Queen, Icebergs, Crepes & Cream, Chocolate Spoon and Selecta. Good thing I haven’t tried Häagen-Daz, it’ll probably add up to my splurging instincts.

5. NEW variety show addiction: Family Outing
Yay! After watching “We Got Married” (well actually just the Kim Hyun Joong – Hwang Bo cuts) I found another variety show to enjoy to: Family Outing.

In each episode, the “Family” travels to different parts of South Korea and takes care of the house of an elderly family while that family goes on a vacation. The “Family” then accomplishes the tasks left for them by the house’s owners. Every week at least one guest star comes to visit. He or she participates in the daily activities along with the permanent cast, the “Family” Members.

Family Outing - Original "Family" Members

The current “Family” members: Yoo Jae Suk, Lee Hyo Ri, Yoon Jong Shin, Kim Su Ro, Kang Dae Sung, Kim Jong Kook, Park Si Yeon and Park Hae Jin. Former “Family” members Park Ye Jin and Lee Chun Hee left the show after their one-year contract ended to pursue their solo careers.

It’s really entertaining. There was never an episode that I did not laugh. The “Family” members are hilarious. Their characters seems to compliment each other making it impossible to have a dull moment in each episode. Plus their guest stars are awesome (though I don’t know some of them). This is where I’ve discovered Lee Hyori. I’m still not finished with all the episodes and might finish them on December after the “most anticipated and nerve-wracking examination of my life”.

Anyway, I’m most excited about their episode for today, Sepetember 20, 2009, their guest star is Kim Hyun Joong. I hope someone would sub it soon so I can watch it with less pressure from my “most anticipated and nerve-wracking examination of my life”.

That’s it! Still hoping for new things to come! Have a nice day!

A few weeks ago, when I attended the Sunday Service on VCF, the main preaching for that day was about: “Genuine faith speaks life from a heart renewed by God.” I’ve posted an entry about Top 10 Tongue Abuse. The whole preaching was great and the message was so powerful. And there’s this one tongue abuse that leaves a big lesson for me. UNBELIEF. And it has something to do with my lovelife.

For some of you, alam niyo siguro yung stand ko about marriage and the likes. This is my line:

“Hindi ako mag-aasawa!”

And for those who are close to me, nung una nilang narinig yan na sinabi ko.. ang reaction nilang lahat.. “Hindi yan! Makakapag-asawa ka no!” And then I was really convicted with that statement. I was very sure about that. Habang tumatagal, may mga hindi na kumokontra dyan.. (But I know at the back of their minds, hindi pa rin sila naniniwala! Hahaha!)

Flashback! I acutally made that decision because… sa totoo lang hindi ko na maalala. So nag-back read ako sa mga post ko sa blogspot and I’ve landed to this entry. Yan yung entry ko when I decided to be single forever (at least for the time being) Naalala ko na ulit kung bakit ayaw ko mag-asawa.. I enjoy being single. Though may “sub-causes” siguro, yung mga dahilan na yun ang hindi ko na talaga maalala.

And then up to that day, before I heard the preaching, wala na talaga sa isip ko ang pag-asawa. Talagang desidido na ako maging single forever. Ni-rationalize ko pa kung bakit. Ito ang ilang sa mga dahilan ko:

• I’ve got “super” high expectations in love and I don’t think there would be no one that can live up to that expectations.
• I’ve got a lot of goals to be fulfilled and marriage is not my goal in life.
• By the time na naabot ko na lahat ng mga pangarap ko, I’ll probably in my late 30’s, so marriage is not applicable anymore (at least for me).
• I’m not really the mother-type.

These are the just the main points.. marami pang ibang dahilan. Lagi nilang sinasabi na: “Kung gusto maraming paraan; kung ayaw, maraming dahilan!” Talagang ayaw ko lang talaga mag-asawa kaya ang dami kong dahilan.

That’s what I have in mind, until I heard the preaching. That’s what I thought was good for me, until I heard about UNBELIEF. Unbelief are the negative words that we speak. “Hindi ako mag-aasawa” is a form of unbelief. Just the mere thought: “Being single single forever” is a form of disbelief..

So what?! “What about unbelief?!” you may ask. This negative words we speak are dishonoring God. Yan yung talagang nag-sink in sakin ng matindi. I know that I may be dishonoring God in some other ways (and I’m working on it) but running away from, at least, one thing that dishonors God is already a great accomplishment. One thing leads to another, as they say.

Marami sigurong mali sa mga dahilan ko tungkol sa love and marriage but just the fact that I dishonor God through that, it was enough to change my view on love and marriage. It was enough to stop me from thinking that I won’t get married. It was enough for me to think that God has a bigger plan for me than I have for myself. (sounds like A Walk To Remember, but its true!)

And from that day forward, my life plan started to change as well as my view on love and marriage. But change doesn’t happen overnight, I’m still on the process but one thing’s for sure, the lines “Hindi ako mag-aasawa!” won’t be heard from me anymore.

I’ve surrendered my lovelife and my heart to God and I believe that He will take care of it until the right time He would reveal his plan for me.

Our tongue is small yet powerful. And yet we tend to abuse it.  Here’s a list:

Top 10 Tongue Abuse according to the Word.

10. Boasting – glorifying oneself in speech; talk in a self-admiring way

May the Lord cut off all flattering lips and every boastful tongue.
Psalm 12:3

9. Reckless words – words spoken without thinking

Reckless word pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.
Proverbs 12:18

8. Cursing – use of profane word or phrase; a swearword; this includes the people you curse

Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness
Romans 3:14

7. Obscenity – indecency, lewdness, or offensiveness in behavior, expression, or appearance

Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place but rather thanksgiving.
Ephesians 5:4

6. Gossip – engaging in or spreading gossip

A gossip betrays confidence; so avoid a man who talks too much.
Proverbs 20:19

5. Slander – a false and malicious statement or report about someone; defaming the character

Brothers, do not slander one another. Anyone who speaks against his brother or judges him speaks against the law and judges it.
James 4:11

4. Unbelief - lack of faith or belief; it’s negative words that we speak

So we see that they were not able to enter, because of their unbelief.
Hebrews 3:19

3. Grumbling – complaining in a surly manner; muttering discontentedly

And do not grumble, as some of them did – and were killed by the destroying angel.
I Corinthians 10:10

2. Lying – presenting false information with the intention of deceiving

“You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor.”
Exodus 20:16

1. Using God’s name in vain

“You shall not misuse the name of the Lord your God, for the Lord will not hold anyone guiltless who misuses his name.”
Exodus 20:7

In one way or another, we are guilty in one or more on these. Everytime we abuse our tongue, we dishonor God. We are all aware about these tongue abuses but the question is, what we do about it?

Tame our tongue!

¹Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly. ²We all stumble in many ways. If anyone is never at fault in what he says, he is a perfect man, able to keep his whole body in check.

³When we put bits into the mouths of horses to make them obey us, we can turn the whole animal. ⁴Or take ships as an example. Although they are so large and are driven by strong winds, they are steered by a very small rudder wherever the pilot wants to go. ⁵Likewise the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. ⁶The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell.

⁷All kinds of animals, birds, reptiles and creatures of the sea are being tamed and have been tamed by man, ⁸but no man can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison.
James 3:1-8

Our tongue is small yet powerful.

• There’s power in your word.
• You were shaped in what you say.
• The tongue can set the direction of your life.

Sometimes we are not satisfied with our live we usually complain about it. We always thought that we cannot do anything about it but God has given us the power to change our life. And that power is our tongue. You start changing the way you speak and before you know it you already changed the direction of your life. Along with these we should always guard our heart “for out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.” (Matthew 12:34)

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.
Proverbs 4:23

We should guard our hearts and tame our tongue because genuine faith speaks life from a heart renewed by God.

I love  how we can get connected to the people you lost touch with.  Those friends or classmates that you haven’t seen for ages, and then suddenly you can see them on you friend requests. Instant reunion I know that it’s not as good as personal reunions, but its good enough. Reunions on Facebook or any other sites may be good start. It’s a good way to reconnect once again to those people you haven’t seen or talk to for a long time.

Dahil sa Facebook, nakikita ko ulit yung mga classmates ko nung elementary. Some of them, di ko na nakita after nung graduation namin, mga 8 years na siguro yun. Nakakatuwang makita sila ulit, kahitv sa Facebook lang. And what do you expect, sobrang laki ng mga improvements. From the way they look, to their whole new personalities and a whole lot more. At dahil din sa FB nakita ko kung ano na yung mga nangyari sa buhay nila. Sobrang nakakatuwa talaga na makita ulit sila.

And the usual talk.. sana may get together! I actually wish that too. I want too see them in person. And some updates with their lives.

It’s always nice to look back on your younger years. Though may mga di magagandang memories, walang panama yun sa mga masasayang pangayayari nung kabataan mo..

Here’s my Grade 6 Class Picture, very nostalgic..

Grade 6 - Isaiah

]]> http://yskee.zpepr.com/2009/09/thanks-to-facebook/feed/ 0 http://yskee.zpepr.com/2009/09/youre-not-a-paper-star/ http://yskee.zpepr.com/2009/09/youre-not-a-paper-star/#comments Fri, 11 Sep 2009 10:52:46 +0000 Marjyeneth http://yskee.zpepr.com/?p=599 Like what I usually say, I’ve got tons of ideas that I want to blog about but I don’t know how to put it in words. I would really love to write something everyday or at least every other day but the words doesn’t come out. Like how I would love to share the things I learned from the church or just the simple thought I got from watching a series.. but I just can’t. I don’t know why. I really I don’t know.

Maybe, just maybe, it’s the part of me that doesn’t want to open up. There’s a part of me that doesn’t want to share my thoughts to other people. I sometimes have the feeling that whenever I share something to someone, I felt like I was giving them some burden (its when I share a problem).  I just don’t like that feeling.

There’s this comment (or rather a question) I had from my cousin, Angel, in my blogspot.. This was a long time ago but I’m still thinking about the answer (cause I’ve never given her my answer) and I still don’t know my answer. She asked me:

“Ano kayang pumipigil sa’yo para magkwento at mag-open up? ‘Yun ang tanong ko. ”

It was a comment from this entry. I can’t remember what I was talking about there. Maybe it’s one of my out-of-this-world-insanity emoness I had back then. The entry is totally random but her response leaves a big impression.

I would always come back to this question from time to time and still no answer. Just a thousands of maybe’s and second thoughts.

You may think that I don’t trust these people for not opening up to them, but I do trust them. I trust them so much that I know when I share something they would be there for me.. I love that but I know that they had their own worries and I don’t want to be an excess baggage for them. So it’s better that I keep it within myself. I would rather share their problems than share them with mine. Its a great satisfaction for me if I can help out the people I love. I really love helping them.

Well, yeah, just a random and emo entry. Maybe a good entry next time.

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_{Credit to Alephunky for the photo.}

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